Wednesday, March 5, 2014

lemme tell you some sad stories

Well, sad to me, at any rate.  It should be sad to the world, like other sad things, but really it's a symptom of many wrong things.

1) A young man (junior high or high school, I am now decrepit enough that it is becoming hard to tell) came up to the desk and said he was writing a paper on Mary Shelley and had to have an autobiography.  I told him that outside of a book of her collected letters, I didn't think she'd written one.  He looked sheepish and said something along the lines of well, I just need information about her.  After a quick clarification of whether he did, indeed, need biographical info or criticism of her work, we set off for the biography section.  No luck, so I took him over to the literary criticism section.  There were several about Frankenstein, of course, but there were also 2 very cool looking books about Shelley and her life in relation to Frankenstein.  I handed him one, took the other for myself, and instructed him to check the index for information specifically about Shelley.  He turned to the table of contents, flipped a couple of pages, then declared it, this book about Mary Shelley, contained "nothing" about Shelley. I looked at mine, showed him all the entries just about her, then he flipped to the back of his book and hemmed and hawed a little more.  I took his book from him, turned to the index entry (which took up nearly an entire page on its own, beautifully indexed under her name by topic even), and showed it to him.  He decided to take that book.  I am continually AmAzEd by the people, teen and adult, who don't know how to use an index.  Or a dictionary for that matter.  Hell, most of these kids can't even use the copy machine because they are used to just clicking an icon for the printer.  We had one middle school aged kid trying to use the phone at the front desk.  She picked up the receiver and put it down several times, never dialing.  Finally, when asked what was wrong, she said it was making a funny noise.  That's not a funny noise, sweetie, that's the dial tone.

2)  Let's have a lesson in the use of an automatic flushing toilet.  You sit down, or you hover.  You do your business and tidy up.  You get up, refasten your clothing, CHECK TO SEE THAT THE TOILET FLUSHED COMPLETELY, FLUSH THE FUCKING TOILET IF NOT, then depart to continue your day.  I have to be here 9 or 10 hours a day and do not appreciate having to wipe up and flush your piss and, thank god only occasionally, your shit.  Every automatic toilet has a manual flush button.  Shocker, I know.  Look for it.  Use it.  I mean, I get it.  There's one toilet in our bathroom that flushes if you bat your eyelashes too hard.  It's out of sync with stall use.  I understand.  But still, look back over your shoulder, notice if you've pissed all over the toilet seat.  Wipe it up.  Did everything go down?  If not, use the button please and make my working life just a tiny bit better.

Thursday, February 13, 2014


Fortunately, I haven't been too adversely affected by our frosty weather here in Birmingham, Alabama.  The first time, I was already at home when everyone else got stuck.  My mother was stuck in her car on the interstate for over 24 hours.  It made me a nervous wreck, but I was a wreck sitting nice and warm in my pjs in a comfy recliner in a house holding at a stead 70 degree temp.  The next time was kind of a dud, as is this one, sort of.  Plenty of snow (for us!) but the temps never really dipped below freezing and the sun has come up on what should be a nearly 50 degree day.

All that being said, I'll finally cry winter uncle.  I want to go outside without a coat.  If I wanted cold temps on a regular basis, I would move to an area where I could enjoy such a thing.  Like many of my friends, I'm ready for spring.  I want to take a walk in the sun, unencumbered by a coat or sweater.  I want my power bill to be less expensive.  The usual.  Of course, in the interests of full disclosure, I'll be able to do that (probably wearing flipflops) next week.  Our bipolar weather is legendary.  It makes me VERY happy that I don't have sensitive sinuses.  I have plenty of friends really suffering as we pinball between warm and humid, cold and humid, warm and dry, and cold and dry.

Also, I believe I'd have an easier time getting myself motivated to get more exercise.  Nothing has been holding me back previously  It's not even an excuse.  I was doing fantastically for a while, then it just got uncomfortably cold for me, my knees and hips ached, the works.

I've got plans for myself this year, though.  Big plans that require a not-so-big person.  So it's time to stop moping with myself and remake some, great habits.  I've had them in the past so I know I can have them again, maybe even on a more permanent basis this time around!

Here's hoping anyway!

Thursday, January 2, 2014

A Stellar Year

I didn't watch as many movies, but I read WAY more books and I lost a shitload of weight.


166. Just a Taste by Deirdre Martin
165. The Cult of Celebrity: What Our Fascination with the Stars Reveals About Us by Cooper Lawrence
164. Christmas Curiosities: Odd, Dark, and Forgotten Christmas by John Grossman
163. The Medic's Homecoming by Lynne Marshall
162. Tactical Strike by Kaylea Cross
161. Personal Assets by Kelsey Browning
160. Hit Hard by Amy J. Fetzer
159. Chasing Stanley by Deirdre Martin
158. Hot Ticket by Deirdre Martin, Julia London, Annette Blair, and Geri Buckley
157. The Penalty Box by Deirdre Martin
156. Kitten's First Full Moon by Kevin Henkes
155. The Girl Who Loved Wild Horses by Paul Goble
154. Total Rush by Deirdre Martin
153. Fair Play by Deirdre Martin
152. Body Check by Deirdre Martin
151. The Firefighter by Susan Lyons, P.J. Mellor, and Alyssa Brooks
150. By Design by Jayne Denker
149. Getting Rowdy by Lori Foster
148. The Rosie Project by Graeme Simsion
147. Spice & Wolf: Vol. 1 by Isuna Hasekura
146. The Joy of Pain: Schadendreude and the Dark Side of Human Nature by Richard H. Smith
145. Ken & Thelma: The Story of A Confederacy of Dunces by Joel L. Fletcher
144. Under Heaven by Guy Gavriel Kay
143. Sexy Devil by Sasha White
142. Steve Jobs by Walter Isaacson
141. How to Tame a Wild Fireman by Jennifer Bernard
140. Empty Net by Toni Aleo
139. Trying to Score by Toni Aleo
138. Taking Shots by Toni Aleo
137. Hunter's Heart by J.D. Tyler
136. Bare It All by Lori Foster
135. Wool by Hugh Howey
134. Run the Risk by Lori Foster
133. Behind the Beautiful Forevers: Life, Death, and Hope in a Mumbai Undercity by Katherine Boo
132. Stealing Home by Jennifer Seasons
131. Black Moon by J.D. Tyler
130. Savage Awakening by J.D. Tyler
129. Black Magic by J.D. Tyler
128. Primal Law by J.D. Tyler
127. One Sweet Ride by Jaci Burton
126. Thrown By a Curve by Jaci Burton
125. Playing to Win by Jaci Burton
124. The Fault in Our Stars by John Green
123. Last Call: Hurricane by Moira Rogers
122. Last Call: Kamikaze by Moira Rogers
121. The Children of Green Knowe by Lucy Boston
120. Lover At Last by J.R. Ward
119. Lover Reborn by J.R. Ward
118. Shanghai Girls by Lisa See
117. Lover Unleashed by J.R. Ward
116. Lover Mine by J.R. Ward
115. Elantris by Brandon Sanderson
114. Lover Avenged by J.R. Ward
113. Lover Enshrined by J.R. Ward
112. Lover Unbound by J.R. Ward
111. Lover Revealed by J.R. Ward
110. Lover Awakened by J.R. Ward
109. Lover Eternal by J.R. Ward
108. Dark Lover by J.R. Ward
107. Taking a Shot by Jaci Burton
106: Zara's Tales: Perilous Escapades in Equatorial Africa by Peter Beard
105. The Shining by Stephen King
104. Changing the Game by Jaci Burton
103. Wear Your Dreams: My Life in Tattoos by Ed Hardy with Joel Selvin
102. The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman
101. How to Marry a Millionaire Vampire by Kerrelyn Sparks
100. The Gettysburg Address: A Graphic Adaptation by Jonathan Hennessey and Aaron McConnell
99. Hollywood Scandals by Gemma Halliday
98. Doors of Perception by Aldous Huxley
97. Soon I Will Be Invincible by Austin Grossman
96. Sex, Drugs, and Gefilte Fish: The HEEB Storytelling Collection edited by Shana Liebman
95. Famous Last Words by Jennifer Salvato Doktorski
94. Gunpowder and Cinnamon by Eli Brown
93. Quiet: The Power if Introverts in a World that Can't Stop Talking by Susan Cain
92. The Perfect Play by Jaci Burton
91. Freefall by Jill Sorenson
90. Ready Player One by Ernest Cline
89. Thrown by a Curve by Jaci Burton
88. Dare to be Dirty by Savannah Fox
87. How My Summer Went Up In Flames by Jennifer Salvato Doktorski
86. Diamonds in the Rough by Portia Da Costa
85. The Maid's Version by Daniel Woodrell
84. I Dream of Danger by Lisa Marie Rice
83. The Dirty Girls' Book Club by Savannah Fox
82. Smokin' Hot Firemen by Delilah Devlin et al.
81. Playing the Part by Robin Covington
80. State of Wonder by Ann Patchett
79. Dream a Little Dream by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
78. Wedding Night by Sophie Kinsella
77. Frank's Independence Day by M.L. Buchman
76. Daniel's Christmas by M.L. Buchman
75. One Fine Fireman by Jennifer Bernard
74. Un Lun Dun by China Mieville
73. Styx's Storm by Lora Leigh
72. Beyond the Dark by Angela Knight, Emma Holly, Lora Leigh, and Diane Whiteside
71. Spook: Science Tackles the Afterlife by Mary Roach
70. Game On by Tracy Solheim
69. Let's Explore Diabetes with Owls by David Sedaris
68. Lawe's Justice by Lora Leigh
67. Lion's Heat by Lora Leigh
66. Defending Jacob by William Landay
65. Bengal's Heart by Lora Leigh
64. Shifter by Angela Knight, Lora Leigh, Alyssa Day, and Virginia Kantra
63. Mercury's War by Lora Leigh
62. Nobody's Baby But Mine by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
61. Hot Spell by Emma Holly, Lora Leigh, Shiloh Walker, and Meljean Brook
60. Stiff: The Curious Lives of Human Cadavers by Mary Roach
59. Dawn's Awakening by Lora Leigh
58. Tanner's Scheme by Lora Leigh
57. Harmony's Way by Lora Leigh
56. Megan's Mark by Lora Leigh
55. Kiss of Heat by Lora Leigh
54. The Man Within by Lora Leigh
53. Tempting the Beast by Lora Leigh
52. The River of Doubt: Theodore Roosevelt's Darkest Journey by Candice Millard
51. Stories From Jonestown by Leigh Fondakowski
50. A Cowboy for Christmas by Lori Wilde
49. A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole
48. Wait Until Dark by M.L. Buchman
47. I Own the Dawn by M.L. Buchman
46. Thrill Ride by Julie Ann Walker
45. Code Name Verity by Eizabeth Wein
44. The Last Runaway by Tracy Chevalier
43. Gateway by Frederik Pohl
42. The Burn Palace by Stephen Dobyns
41. The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
40. Why Can't I Be You by Allie Larkin
39. The Engagement by Chloe Hooper
38. Picasso at the Lapin Agile and Other Plays by Steve Martin
37. Savage Hunger by Terry Spear
36. The Cowboy and the Princess by Lori Wilde
35. Bellwether by Connie Willis
34. Cowboy Crazy by Joanne Kennedy
33. The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell
32. Luscious by Amanda Usen
31. Rev It Up by Julie Ann Walker
30. Sex and the Single Fireman by Jennifer Bernard
29. I Own the Night by M.L. Buchman
28. What the Librarian Did by Karina Bliss
27. Hot for Fireman by Jennifer Bernard
26. The Fireman Who Loved Me by Jennifer Bernard
25. In Rides Trouble by Julie Ann Walker
24. Beautiful Ruins by Jess Walter
23. Hell on Wheels by Julie Ann Walker
22. Death's Heretic by James L. Sutter
21: Betty Page presents The Librarian by Logan Belle
20. The Captive by Scott O'Dell
19. The Age of Miracles by Karen Thompson Walker
18. The King in Yellow by Robert W. Chambers
17. Bossypants by Tina Fey
16. Where'd You Go, Bernadette? by Maria Semple
15. Ready Player One by Ernest Cline
14. Wanton West: Madams, Money, Murder, and the Wild Women of Montana's Frontier by Lael Morgan
13. Aftershock by Jill Sorenson
12. Long Black Cadillac by B.A. Tortuga
11. The Boy in the Suitcase by Lene Kaaberbol & Agnete Friis
10. River Road by Suzanne Johnson
9. The Wettest County in the World by Matt Bondurant
8. Return to Willow Lake by Susan Wiggs
7. Tallie's Hero by Sara Luck
6. Brides of the West by Victoria Bylin, Janet Dean, and Pamela Nissen
5. Saving the Rifleman by Julie Rowe
4. Danger Zone by Dee J. Adams
3. Among Others by Jo Walton
2. Naughty or Nice? by Sherrilyn Kenyon, Patricia Ryan, Kathryn Smith, and Carly Phillips
1. Beautiful Darkness by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl

25. Desolation of Smaug
24. Catching Fire
23. Thor
22. Ender's Game
21. Gravity
 20. The Conjuring (9/23)
19. Riddick (9/8)
18. We're the Millers (8/18)
17. The Conjuring (7/21)
16. Pacific Rim IMAX 3D (7/12)
15. The Lone Ranger (7/5)
14. Man of Steel (6/23)
13. Star Trek: Into Darkness (6/16)
12. Evil Dead (6/9)
11. The Great and Powerful Oz (6/1)
10. Epic 3D (5/28)
9. Star Trek: Into Darkness 3D IMAX (5/22)
8. Iron Man 3 3D IMAX (5/7)
7. Scary Movie 5 (4/27)
6. Evil Dead (4/7)
5. The Host (3/29)
 4. Dark Skies (3/17)
3. Breaking Dawn Part 2 (2/28)
2. Identity Thief (2/9)
1. The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey (2/3)

Saturday, March 30, 2013

the la boring tar pits

Due to my recent glutting on the tv show Big Bang Theory combined with how godawfully slowly this day has gone by, I have serious ponderings about the time space continuum and relativity.  Unfortunately, I don't have the corresponding vocabulary and/or background in theoretical physics to either voice or answer my own questions.  That's some sort of feedback loop the likes of which may just confound Dr. Sheldon Cooper.

If I didn't absolutely know that the full moon passed me by a few nights ago, I'd swear it was on it's way tonight.  Or someone hung out the psychiatric shingle in front of the library today.

It's slow, Slow, ssssslllllloooooowwwww and I'm mucho bored.  I've done paperwork until my eyes are blurry and irritated and I can do no more.  I've filled in calendars, cleaned up dirty toilet paper, made more coffee than is served at Waffle House, watched gross people dig around in the candy dish, answered a million questions that all seemed to go this similar directions "do you have 1040 tax forms? yes. you do? yes.  so you really do? yes.  i just can't believe you can say that without looking. i can." and still have to stop by Walmart on the way home.

I took 4 and a half days of staycation last week in an attempt to recharge my solitude batteries and it has been sucked away most aggressively since Tuesday.  I didn't even know that was possible.  It makes me think some deep thoughts like, am I burning out after only 17 years?  I don't want to be that crotchety middle-aged librarian so popular in myth, much less a crotchety old one.  I've got a shitload to go before retirement is an option and there's nothing I'd rather do.  That is the crux of the problem.  I adore my work, but I get so tired of it so easily nowadays.  Am I broken?  People get on my nerves like they have never gotten on them before, and they're not even new people.  They are regulars that I've seen and dealt with for YEARS and they are only now trying to be the last straw?  How does that even happen?

I used to hate being around people, then I started public service and discovered I loved helping them, not I seem to be on the other side of some sort of bell curve that I don't appreciate being on.  I was not consulted, or asked, or warned for that matter.  Perhaps it's living alone and liking it, perhaps too much, though I certainly don't want a roommate again.  I can't even imagine having to put up with a significant other at this point, much less a casual acquaintance.  Maybe I need to take a meditation class, dig around in my own head a bit.  Maybe take it seriously and let someone else dig around in my head a bit.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

coming out of the fat closet

Oh no, I'm not quite there yet, but I'm working on it.

I've lost a little over 70 pounds in the past 4 months and I am quite proud of that.  I've run into a couple of people whom I haven't seen since I had surgery or since early on afterward.  They smile, give me a thumbs up. I smile, give them a thumbs up back.  Some sidle up to me, speaking out of the corner of their mouths, "You look great!  How do you feel?"  Real quiet, whispering.

I feel great.

I'm proud of myself for making a tough life decision about my health and following through with that decision.

I'm not ashamed that I couldn't just do it on my own.

I'm not ashamed that joining a group didn't help.

What it ultimately comes down to is:  I'm not ashamed.  There's no need to whisper.  There's no need to catch me alone.

I had a vertical sleeve gastrectomy, not a back alley abortion, nor am I conducting a seedy drug deal.  If you know about my surgery and would like to comment on my appearance, do need to be shy.  If you didn't know about my surgery and think I have cancer, you'll be just as relieved as I am for that not to be the case.  Though hopefully my hair loss WILL slow down so that won't become a completely common place reaction.  I've only had a small handful of people ask me if I'm sick, thank goodness.

I'm delighted to talk about it with anyone who'd like to know more about it.  But anyway, I just wanted to say that, to get that out there on the table.

Hi, my name is Holley.  I had weight loss surgery and I'm not ashamed.  Neither should you be.  Claim that decision for yourself, own it, be proud of it, benefit from it.  I know I'm planning to.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

keeping resolutions

The key to this one, specifically, is having something to blog about.  Epic fail.  Nothing is going on with me and nothing especially entertaining is going on at work, outside of my general annoyance with tax forms right now.  I can't write about that every day.  Well, I guess I could but I'd be tired of myself long before anyone else had a chance.

I seem to be in some sort of slump right now.  I'm unable to concentrate on any of the 8 books I have to read this month.  That's going to suck come book group/contest judging deadline.  I can't find anything to watch on television since I finished the available episodes of The Walking Dead, Game of Thrones, and True Blood.  I keep returning to Keeping Up Appearances and the Vicar of Dibley so I can listen without watching while either quasi-napping or playing Words with Friends or checking Facebook.  I'll beat you to the punch and admit that I'm working on breaking my FB checking habit.  At least reducing it a little.

It's just when I get off work, I want silence and solitude.  I don't want to go out.  I don't want anyone to ask me ANYTHING.  I don't want to talk on the phone.  I don't want anyone to want anything, or want to know anything, that I may be able to provide.  I'm getting grumpy because I'm not reading, but I can't concentrate on reading because I'm grumpy and unsettled.


Saturday, January 5, 2013

lemme tell you my favorite time of year

I have a couple of them here at the 'brary, led quite strongly by junior high/high school exams in May and December.  And when I say favorite, I really mean one of the inner circles of hell.

But hey, don't mind me.  After all, my occupation is listed as one of the least stressful jobs this year.  (along with medical records, T.  Let me know how you feel about that, as I know you will read this)

My second most favorite time of year is tax time, which apparently starts (for us) in November.  Guess what folks?  Even if I had your tax forms in November, while legislation is being decided in case you don't watch the news/listen to the radio/read a newspaper/have a pulse, I can't put them out until after the first of the year.  Now the deluge has begun.  "Why don't you have tax forms?"  "When will they be here?"  "Why are they late?"  ...and the like.  People, I have as much control over the when and how of your tax forms as I do over global warming and world peace.  In fact, I think I just may have MORE control over world peace than I have over tax forms.  I ordered the damn things in August.  AUGUST, people.  Just as soon as the ordering was ready, I ordered.  My part is done.  Quit making me personally responsible for your tax forms.  You know where you can get them RIGHT NOW if they're available?  A little thing we like to call the internet.

"You have until April.  Back the fuck off."

That's what I want to say.

I didn't, of course.  But I thought it REAL HARD.

That is all.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

the end of year roundup

it's time a) to stop saying I'm getting back up on the blogging horse and f*&king do it and b) condense my sidebar items in preparation for 2013.  It's a small housekeeping item, so bear with me.  I like to be able to look back at this kind of stuff, so I'm dragging you one or two (or zero) people with me.

My weight loss efforts:

February 2008: 386.4

February 7th: 268.8
March 14th: 276
April 4th: 273.4
May 9th: 281.4
June 6th: 275.6
August 8th: 288
September 5: 288.2
November 14: 312
December 12: 322.4

January 2: 329.6
August 13: 325.4
August 20: 325.2
August 27: 327.0
September 3: 314.2
September 7: Gastric Sleeve Surgery
September 10. 305.8
September 17: 301.8
September 24: 299
October 1: 294.4
October 8: 289.6
October 15: 286.0
October 22: 287.4
October 29: 286.2
November 5: 280.0
November 12: 276.8
November 19: 275.2
November 26: 274.8
December 3: 269.6
December 10: 265.8
December 17: 266.8
December 24: away from home
December 31: 262.6

  • 75. In the Garden of Beasts by Erik Larson
  • 74. The Shadow of the Torturer by Gene Wolfe
  • 73. The Moviegoer by Walker Percy
  • 72. The Hobbit by J.R.R. Tolkien
  • 71. Marshall's Guard by Isabo Kelly
  • 70. Dead-Eye Dick by Kurt Vonnegut
  • 69. Stay by Allie Larkin
  • 68. Heart of Danger by Lisa Marie Rice
  • 67. Bite by Sean Michaels
  • 66. Black Heart by Holly Black
  • 65. Girl of Nightmares by Kendare Blake
  • 64. Dead Until Dark by Charlaine Harris
  • 63. Sara and Eleanor: The Story of Sara Delano Roosevelt and Her Daughter-in-Law, Eleanor Roosevelt by Jan Pottker
  • 62. Beautiful Creatures by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl
  • 61. The Night Strangers by Chris Bohjalian
  • 60. Bad Boys Online by Erin McCarthy et. al.
  • 59. Red Shirts by John Scalzi
  • 58. The Raven Boys by Maggie Stiefvater
  • 57. Locke & Key Volume 2: Head Games by Joe Hill and Gabriel Rodriguez
  • 56. The Outlaw Album by Daniel Woodrell
  • 55. John Dies At the End by David Wong
  • 54. Dearly Departed by Lia Habel
  • 53. Drive by James Sallis
  • 52. Crossed by J.F. Lewis
  • 51. Seraphina by Rachel Hartmann
  • 50. Unexpected by Lori Foster
  • 49. The Case of the Missing Marquess by Nancy Springer
  • 48. Locke & Key Volume 1: Welcome to Lovecraft by Joe Hill and Gabriel Rodriguez
  • 47. Abraham Lincoln, Vampire Hunter by Seth Grahame-Smith
  • 46. The Wave by Susan Casey
  • 45. Blood, Bones, & Butter by Gabrielle Hamilton
  • 44. Warriors 1 edited by George R.R. Martin
  • 43. The Language of Flowers by Vanessa Diffenbaugh
  • 42. The Great Escape by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
  • 41. Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs
  • 40. Dream a Little Dream by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
  • 39. The Secret of the Great Pyramid by Bob Brier
  • 38. Nobody's Baby But Mine by Susan Elizabeth Phillips
  • 37. Railsea by China Mieville
  • 36. Anna Dressed in Blood by Kendare Blake
  • 35. The Paris Wife by Paula McLain
  • 34. The Enchantress by Michael Scott
  • 33. Enticed by His Forgotten Lover by Maya Banks
  • 32. The Gatecrasher by Madeleine Wickham
  • 31. Georgia's Kitchen by Jenny Nelson
  • 30. Amped by Daniel H. Wilson
  • 29. Dragon Shift by Alice Gaines
  • 28. Crazy for Love by Victoria Dahl
  • 27. The Ritual by Adam Nevill
  • 26. The Lifeboat by Charlotte Rogan
  • 25. The Incorrigible Children of Ashton Place: The Unseen Visitor by Maryrose Wood
  • 24. The Sisters Brothers by Patrick DeWitt
  • 23. The Duchess Who Wouldn't Sit Down: An Informal History of Hospitality by Jesse Browner
  • 22. The Incorrigible Children of Ashton Place: The Hidden Gallery by Maryrose Wood
  • 21. A Good and Useful Hurt by Aric Davis
  • 20. Extraordinary, Ordinary People by Condoleezza Rice
  • 19. Fifty Shades of Gray by E.L. James
  • 18. Crucible of Gold by Naomi Novik
  • 17. The Cailiffs of Baghdad, Georgia by Mary Helen Stefaniak
  • 16. The 27s: The Greatest Myth of Rock & Roll by Eric Segalstad
  • 15. Surprise Offense by Carol Halston
  • 14. T-R-O-U-B-L-E by Sable Hunter
  • 13. Room by Emma Donoghue
  • 12. The Reader by Bernhard Schlink
  • 11. The Hangman's Daughter by Oliver Potzsch
  • 10. Night Road by Kristin Hannah
  • 9. Blackdog by K.V. Johansen
  • 8. The Age of Innocence by Edith Wharton
  • 7. Willpower: Rediscovering Humanity's Greatest Strength by Roy F. Baumeister and John Tierney
  • 6. War Horse by Michael Morpurgo
  • 5. Farmer in the Sky by Robert Heinlein
  • 4. Graveminder by Melissa Marr
  • 3. Stay by Ally Larkin
  • 2. Deep Cover by Sandra Orchard
  • 1. Burning Up by Angela Knight et al


Les Miserables
Cique du Soleil: Worlds Away
Wreck-It Ralph
Paranormal Activity 4
The Possession
Madagascar 3
Diary of a Wimpy Kid: Dog Days
The Campaign
The Dark Knight Rises
Magic Mike
Men In Black 3
The Raven
Cabin in the Woods
Mirror, Mirror
The Hunger Games
The Lorax
Jack & Jill
The Woman in Black
Sherlock Holmes: Game of Shadows
The Devil Inside
Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

movin' right along

So, I'm 6 weeks out from surgery and 43 pounds down.  43 down, 100 to go.  It's gonna happen.

Just so we're clear, here's what I had done:
I feel good, my energy is mostly back. I haven't gotten back to sleeping through the night completely, but I'll get there. I really believe that as soon as the weather figures out that it's Fall and my house stays cool at night that the sleeping issue will get a bit better. After all, what was keeping me up the most were issues of digestion and all that has settled down to at least 98% normal.

Week 7 starts next Monday and I'll be on the lifetime maintenance diet, which means I get to eat whatever I want, in small amounts.  Right now I can eat lean chicken, turkey, fish, or seafood.  I haven't been craving beef or pork as much as I thought I would, but I'm REAL tired of chicken, turkey, fish, and seafood as that's all I've been eating since week 4.  Before that, I got tired of strained soups and soft foods, so progress has been made certainly.

Things that happened pretty much immediately include my knee pain practically disappearing, my plantarfaciitis going the same, and my carpal tunnel settling down.  I assume those issues will continue to subside and if nothing else resulted, I'd be happy with than as those contributed to a lot of my chronic pain.  I still don't walk for exercise a whole lot because that's about the only thing that aggravates my confounded knees but I do ride my recumbent bike a lot.  I have a post surgical followup with my surgeon on Election Day and I expect to get cleared for swimming and maybe some aerobics if my knees will manage it.  I still have some twinges of pain in my abdomen from time to time if I'm twisting or bending while lifting something so I know there's still some healing going on in there.  I don't want to do anything to jeopardize how good I feel right now.  I'm really looking forward to starting back to pilates but it's definitely too soon for that right now.  I do a couple of crunches after my post-cycling stretch, but those muscles are ready for any serious squishing and I'm not going to try for another couple of weeks.  My post surgical instructions said no strenuous exercise for 6-8 weeks, so I can hold out on trying for another 2 weeks. 

No regrets!  Moving forward from here!

How you doin'?

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

broccoli carbs

Imagine my disappointment to learn that, according to the app I'm using to keep a food log, my one cup of steamed broccoli has almost 10 grams of carbohydrates.  Go on, imagine it.  I'll wait.

My second day of presurgery, low carb eating and I'm....I don't want to say miserable or uncomfortable, but it's easy to see that I was more addicted to them than I imagined.  I'm selecting from a food list provided by my doctor, so I don't have many concerns on that score but I'd really love some cheese dip and tortilla chips about now.  One of my friends on Facebook mentioned having a craving for margaritas and now that's been a recurring thought ALL. DAY. LONG.  The salt, the tequila...I can almost taste them in the air.  Oh well, there's low fat string cheese and natural almonds in my lunch box for a snack on the way home after work.  I shouldn't really be eating this late at night, but if I don't snack there'll be consequences.  And I'll have to take full responsibility for them.

Who knows how Labor Day will go.  I've had several requests for outings, but if I still feel as wishy-washy, willpower and craving-wise, as I do right now I really believe the smartest thing for me to do would be to stay home.  It could be that I'll get over the hump of this by week's end and feel stronger and more confident over the weekend but from where I'm sitting now, it seems unlikely.  Especially knowing I have those two clear liquid days coming up next Wednesday and Thursday.  I haven't been exercising because I don't want to be any hungrier that I am just sitting on my ass.

On the bright side, I learned about a protein powder today in the flavor of Peanut Butter Cookie.  Unfortunately, I also learned they were out of stock.  Trust me, when they get back in stock, I'll do my part to buy them out again.  I can imagine a Frosty Chocolate and Peanut Butter Cookie protein concoction inventing itself in my Ninja as we speak.

I've had several people ask me if I'm scared or nervous and I can't really say that I am.  I've been reading about, preparing and stocking for, and thinking about this since April.  I've got lists and motivational books and charts.  My friend KT has backed me up on a point with which I feel comfortable: I have my shit together.

I told her about some of the YouTube videos I'd briefly looked at.  There was a lot of discussion of contant nausea, not being able to eat, not knowing what to eat, and just general confusion.  But I know what to eat, was informed about the common causes of nausea after this surgery, and have no underlying health issues other than arthritic knees.

I can do this.